Redemption in the Dextrosphere

by 1389 on April 2, 2012

in 1389 (blog admin), Bible, Christianity, crime

Here is why I have to give admitted former con man and convicted felon Paul H. Lemmen the benefit of the doubt.

Americans impose longer sentences than any other place in the “free” world. But that’s not all. Once the offender has served his time, everybody shuns him, won’t offer him jobs, won’t rent him living quarters, and so on and so forth. How is an ex-offender supposed to “go straight” and physically survive? Not everybody has family or law-abiding friends who are in a position to take up the slack and offer a safe haven for however long it takes.

Matthew 25:34-40 (KJV)

34 Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world:
35 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:
36 Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.
37 Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink?
38 When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee?
39 Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee?
40 And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.

As one pastor mentioned in a homily some time ago, that obligation is NOT limited to innocent people who we know are unjustly imprisoned. Food for thought…

Blog Admin 1389, a/k/a 1389AD

Paul Lemmen: On Blogging and Acceptance

Unlike one of my favorite bloggers (The Other McCain), I do not write for money. I write to get the words and ideas that are stuck in my mind free, to open up my mind and to hopefully free my soul from the prison of my own devising.

For imprisoned it is. Years of lies, criminal acts and con-artistry have built walls so high and so thick that it has taken years of good direction, confession, therapy and the love of my wife to get to where I am today.

I strive daily to remain in the good graces of not only society and my church, but of myself most of all. Like most humans, I have a need for acceptance, for inclusion and for recognition. In the past I got these needs filled by lies and deception.

No longer! The much more powerful and fulfilling response to brutally honest truth has me hooked. To tell the unvarnished truth, no matter how much it embarrasses me, how hurtful it is to acknowledge my failings and lies, to openly admit I am a failure at life, these things have a power and a glory all their own that fills me with the resolve to go on, to continue telling truth, not only as it relates to my past and my attempt to be a valuable and trustworthy individual, but also about our society as a whole and the dangers posed to that society, from the perspective of one who has seen the inner workings and exploited them.

I am human and I can be hurt by even the most innocent of snubs, the most trivial of criticisms and the righteous indignation of others that I dare to show my face in the public sphere.

These things hurt, they depress and yet they also teach.

When I learned that an article I wrote was linked at I Own The World, I was ecstatic. As I watched the hits climbed and climbed then stopped. When I when to iOTW, the post linking to mine was gone. Then there was a post about it being “memory holed”, basically flushed down the proverbial toilet. With that came rancorous comments and indignation. All of which hurt and yet were nothing less than what I deserved. I wrote an article that really laid down the truth (I have been telling the truth about my self since day one of this blog, hiding nothing). I also sent an email to all those who had linked to an article (or articles) in the past or that I had sent links to, about my past in no uncertain terms, bluntly telling them to be aware of my past before linking to me.

Then I was made aware of an email sent out to many of the same folks from a well known conservative blogger that I idolized, Ann Barnhardt:

From: Ann Barnhardt <ann@barnhardt.biz>
To: bigfurhat (REDACTED) ; Doug Ross (REDACTED); Hugh Vaughan-Williams (REDACTED); Kevin Trainor (REDACTED); menderman (REDACTED); Robert Belvedere (REDACTED); Robert Janicki (REDACTED); Smitty (REDACTED); (REDACTED); the sponblog (REDACTED); Thomas Paine (REDACTED); Will Profit (REDACTED); Zilla (REDACTED)
Sent: Thursday, March 15, 2012 8:49 PM
Subject: RE: New post

Just making certain that everyone knows that this guy is a criminal and a con artist. Post nothing, forward nothing, link nothing, and DO NOT give him any money.
Thanks-
Ann Barnhardt

Did the knowledge that someone I held in high regard as a warrior for our nation (and whose videos about the truth about Islam are excellent) is blacklisting me hurt? Of course it did. Was Ann justified in doing so? She obviously thought so, and she is well within her rights to express her belief in such a manner.

I sulked for a few days, made some snarky posts and eventually the pain subsided. It still hurts and the knowledge that my articles will not get the exposure I want for them does still disappoint, but I made this bed long ago and I must lie in it, the marginalization of my blog, my articles and my opinions is the result of my own actions, not anyone else’s actions.

I know that I am a good writer, that what I write nowadays is not deception, not to lie to anyone or to manipulate someone to my personal benefit. I write to try to make a difference in not only my life, but for the betterment of our nation and society. I know my “voice” is a tiny one, easily disregarded or unheard. I will “speak” nonetheless, for a multitude of small voices may become an overwhelming klaxon of alarm.

I will continue to write, even if none but my friends read me.

I must point out that, despite what the email from Ann Barnhardt implied, Paul Lemmen was not, and is not, asking anybody to send money to him. Instead, he has been asking people to send money to OTHER bloggers in need, and especially to Zilla of the Resistance, who has been battling some severe health issues and still needs our help.

Click here for Paul Lemmen’s confession. Interesting reading!

 


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1 plemmen April 2, 2012 at 12:46 pm

Thank you. And I shall continue to pray to the Lord our God for you and for my continued conversio morum (change of life), that by God’s Grace and the salvific act of His Son I am redeemed.

2 Zilla April 2, 2012 at 1:41 pm

Beautiful post, my dear friend, 1389! Thank you for writing it for looking beyond my friend Paul’s past and not letting other people choose for you what to think about him.

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